I definitely plan to be around as long as I can. It's just that sometimes it gets harder, because there is a part of me that wants not to be here. I was feeling that way yesterday, and this poem is what came out of it. I got fed up with my own thoughts, so I ended up writing this, just to get it out. It's a weird feeling wanting to die and wanting to live at the same time, but that is what happens in my brain. I'm really pleased I was able to write this, mainly because it stopped me from doing anything I wrote about in the poem, and I have no need to cover anything up.

Thank you so much for the hugs and for always leaving such lovely comments. It really does mean a lot to me.