Forgive me for babbling on and on, but...

[bleedingangel84]

Life is kinda kicking my ass at the moment. I have family members and others I care for that are sick and/or otherwise dealing with health-related situations that are not good. I am trying to stay positive. I am, I promise. I'm struggling today. I've been on the verge of frustrated stress tears all day. I'm trying to keep it together, but all I really want to do is fall apart. I honestly love my family, I do. I appreciate everything they have done and are doing for me. That being said, sometimes I can't help feeling...small. Having to depend on them makes me realize just how truely not comfortable I feel around them sometimes. I don't even know why. They aren't mean about helping me. Actually, they've been really nice and kind and good to me. I just wish it wasn't necessary. I wish there was some way to press pause on my life for a short while and just...stop everything.

Comments

[lyonessheart.livejournal.com]

I feel surpressing the tears sometimes makes it worse, it is like your body is a pressure cooker and you refuse to let the valves open that alleviate some of that pressure. It is not weakness to cry - only fools refuse relief.

I don´t think you would ever cry to make someone feel bad and so I can only give you thte advice - cry if you need it.

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

I agree, suppressing tears does make it worse. I just don't feel right about crying unless I'm in private, which I know is silly, but it has to do with the way I was raised, I guess. Thank you so much for the support. It means a lot to me.