Forgive me for babbling on and on, but...

[bleedingangel84]

Life is kinda kicking my ass at the moment. I have family members and others I care for that are sick and/or otherwise dealing with health-related situations that are not good. I am trying to stay positive. I am, I promise. I'm struggling today. I've been on the verge of frustrated stress tears all day. I'm trying to keep it together, but all I really want to do is fall apart. I honestly love my family, I do. I appreciate everything they have done and are doing for me. That being said, sometimes I can't help feeling...small. Having to depend on them makes me realize just how truely not comfortable I feel around them sometimes. I don't even know why. They aren't mean about helping me. Actually, they've been really nice and kind and good to me. I just wish it wasn't necessary. I wish there was some way to press pause on my life for a short while and just...stop everything.

Comments

[enchanted-jae.livejournal.com]

Have a good cry if it makes you feel better. Holding it all in can't be good for you, sweetling.

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

My body took the decision from me tonight. I did end up crying. I really didn't want to, but the tears just wouldn't stop coming. I don't even think I realized I was crying at first until I felt something drip on my clothes. I do feel a little better for having done it, though. Thank you so much, Jae. Your support really means a lot to me.

[drarryisgreen]

♥

All the positive vibes to you! <3

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

<3 Thank you so, so much.

[my_thestral]

Meh, poor you! :( I imagine it must be god-awful feeling dependent and coming into situations when you realize that you are. :P I guess if you had a good cry, some of the worst tension is already gone and perhaps you're feeling a tiny bit better already? I certainly hope so.
We all have bad days and then there are really miserable days (as you well know from my last week's comments!) and then the swing goes upwards again and we're able to see the skies. :)
Once you're down, there's no other way but up, hon... :)
Super squeezy hugs and a butterbeer for your sorrow! :)

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

I do feel a little better today, thank goodness. These things run in cycles, apparently. I cried, and then it was like my brain said I was allowed to feel better. Thank you so much for the hugs and support. I really appreciate it. <3 *hugs*

[lyonessheart.livejournal.com]

I feel surpressing the tears sometimes makes it worse, it is like your body is a pressure cooker and you refuse to let the valves open that alleviate some of that pressure. It is not weakness to cry - only fools refuse relief.

I don´t think you would ever cry to make someone feel bad and so I can only give you thte advice - cry if you need it.

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

I agree, suppressing tears does make it worse. I just don't feel right about crying unless I'm in private, which I know is silly, but it has to do with the way I was raised, I guess. Thank you so much for the support. It means a lot to me.