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bleedingangel84) wrote2015-06-26 01:11 am
bleedingangel84) wrote2015-06-26 01:11 am
Me again...sorry
Confession time: Sometimes I feel completely incapable of being a functioning adult. Life in general scares the shit out of me. Sometimes, I really honest-to-god hate depending on my family and think I would rather die than have to do that another day because what I have isn't really a life. It's an existence, and that's all.
With that said, I'm here, and for whatever reason, higher powers let me keep existing. What the hell for...? Who the fuck knows?
I have wishes for my life that no one knows about. I have a feeling there are some that I don't even know about yet.
But, mainly, it boils down to wanting to feel secure, but also be free.
Which is more or less impossible, because there are times when my body itself feels like a prison.
Anyway, I'll hush now. I just had to get that out.
With that said, I'm here, and for whatever reason, higher powers let me keep existing. What the hell for...? Who the fuck knows?
I have wishes for my life that no one knows about. I have a feeling there are some that I don't even know about yet.
But, mainly, it boils down to wanting to feel secure, but also be free.
Which is more or less impossible, because there are times when my body itself feels like a prison.
Anyway, I'll hush now. I just had to get that out.