My birthday is looming...

My birthday is coming up. Ever since I was about 15, this has led to an intense period of introspection in the days before and days after, which always leaves me feeling worse than when it started. This year is no exception. I'm approaching 27, and it feels like I've accomplished nothing worthwhile in life.  Yes, I have graduated high school and graduated from college.  I should be proud of those things.  I have my diploma and two degrees from an excellent school. You would think I'd be proud of that, right? But, I'm not. That accomplishment goes as much to other people as it does to me. I had people behind me every step of the way, pushing me. Without them, I really don't think I'd have done half as well as I did. So, that accomplishment feels like it doesn't belong to me, even if those pieces of paper have my name on them.

I'm nearly 27, I have physical limitations in the form of Cerebral Palsy, I've never had a real job. I have social anxiety that makes it hard to even go out of my house. I have no significant other. My father has cancer, and my best friend is my 72-year-old grandmother who is loving, but smotheringly overprotective at times. This is my life, and honestly, I'm feeling like it kinda sucks right now. I know there are loads of people who have it worse than I do. Maybe I'm not right to complain about it, but I can't help wanting so much more out of life than this. I can't help wondering if I will ever get it.