bleedingangel84 | Some old poems/blog posts from MySpace back in 2007... (Reply)

Subject	Death Wish
DateCreated	5/15/2007 8:18:00 PM
PostedDate	5/15/2007 8:05:00 PM
Body	Restless in the heat of Spring, I long to burst forth, but I am stunted. I try to tell you how I hurt, but I cannot find the words. I cry inside; you never see my tears. Desperation gnaws at me as I long for death, crying to God to end this pain. I stand in rain and cry, longing for lightning to burn me with it's heat- sear my flesh and leave the remains. Turn me to ashes as my blood flows, and weep for the angels to carry me home.

Subject	Trapped
DateCreated	8/1/2007 10:01:00 AM
PostedDate	8/1/2007 9:47:00 AM
Body	I've had enough of sitting on the sidelines just watching the world pass me by. I'm in a cage that I can't get out of, been in so long, I'm afraid to try. I wish you could see the tears I try so desperately to hide, but you determinedly shut your eyes to the pain, going on another day while I'm silently screaming. I beg you with noiseless screams to ease the hurt inside-rescue me from myself! Yet the deliverance of your sweet touch never comes. Instead I stand alone and cold in the brutal light of the sun.

Subject	Preserving Sanity
DateCreated	4/1/2007 11:43:00 PM
PostedDate	4/1/2007 11:22:00 PM
Body	I sit alone at night in the silence, hoping for the rain to hide my tears. They burn my face like a fire with their heat. I lean my face up to the night, seeking solace in the face of the moon. I whisper a single word--please, waiting for the pain to end, wishing I could just bleed, knowing I would sacifice myself to end this loneliness. Some might call me crazy, but say what they will, they know nothing of my life. No one seems to understand that I must sacrifice my body-to Preserve- a single shred- of Sanity.

Subject	Wishing Well
DateCreated	4/12/2007 3:04:00 PM
PostedDate	4/12/2007 3:05:00 PM
Body	Looking down into the wishing well, I see it's filled-With the thousands of tears I cried through all my lonely years. Looking up into the sun, I flinch, feeling heat that scorches my flesh- a thousand times hotter than your gaze had ever been. I burn-and long for wind that never comes, the cool kiss of rain against fevered skin. A desire fills me, the wish to cease this vapid existence-so strong. I plead with you to take me blade-finish me, scar me-help me to end this misguided yearning for the heart that never cared.

Subject	Restless
DateCreated	3/19/2007 6:45:00 PM
PostedDate	3/19/2007 6:33:00 PM
Body	I feel the pain I hold deep inside-throbbing. Can I ever bleed enough for this to ease? I long for an end to all this, but longing is never enough. I lack the courage for that final, fatal step that would heal the loneliness inside me. Do you even see the tears I cry at night--alone? I hope you rot in hell, you crazy bastard. I gave you my heart, and you twisted it inside me, until there was nothing left but hurt. Left me cold and lonely, with nothing but deep loathing for myself.

Subject	Interesting
DateCreated	2/10/2007 3:58:00 PM
PostedDate	2/10/2007 3:56:00 PM
Body	Your past life diagnosis: I don't know how you feel about it, but you were male in your last earthly incarnation.You were born somewhere in the territory of modern North China around the year 700. Your profession was that of a shepherd, horseman or forester. Your brief psychological profile in your past life: Revolutionary type. You inspired changes in any sphere - politics, business, religion, housekeeping. You could have been a leader. The lesson that your last past life brought to your present incarnation: Your lesson is to learn humility and faith in spiritual principles. You should believe in higher reasons. Do you remember now?

Subject

Quizzes

DateCreated

2/6/2007 7:28:00 PM

PostedDate

2/6/2007 6:50:00 PM

Body

Just took a few quizzes. Here are my results

You Are From Pluto

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You are a dark, mysterious soul, full of magic and the secrets of the universe.

You can get the scoop on anything, but you keep your own secrets locked in your heart.

You love change and you use it to your advantage, whether by choice or chance.

You don't like to compromise, to the point of being self-destructive with your stubborness.

Live life with love, and your deep powers will open the world to you.

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Your Love Type: INFJ

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The Protector

In love, you strive to have the perfect relationship.

For you, sex is nearly a spiritual experience, a bonding of souls.

Overall, you have high expectations for any relationship you're in.

However, you tend to hold back a part of yourself.

Best matches: ENTP and ENFP

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You Are 60% Feminine, 40% Masculine

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You are in touch with both your feminine and masculine sides.

You're sensitive at the right times, but you don't let your emotions overwhelm you.

You're not a eunuch, just the best of both genders.

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Your Brain is 80% Female, 20% Male

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Your brain leans female

You think with your heart, not your head

Sweet and considerate, you are a giver

But you're tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

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Your Love Style is Agape

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You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.

Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.

You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.

Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.

For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love.

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You Are 80% Psychic

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You are so very psychic.

But you already predicted that, didn't you?

You have "the gift" - and you use it daily to connect with others.

You're very tapped into the world around you...

Just make sure to use your powers for good!

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What Your Soul Really Looks Like

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You are very passionate and quite temperamental. While you can be moody, you always crave comfort.

You are a very grounded, responsible, and realistic person. People may not want to hear the truth from you, but they're going to get it.

You believe that people see you as a bit small and insignificant. People pay more attention to you than you think.

Your near future is still unknown, and a little scary. You'll get through wild times - and you'll textually enjoy it.

For you, love is all about caring and comfort. You couldn't fall in love with someone you didn't trust.

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Subject

more quizzes

DateCreated

2/6/2007 8:38:00 PM

PostedDate

2/6/2007 7:31:00 PM

Body

You Have Good Karma

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In general, you like to do the right thing when it comes to others.

Your caring personality really shines through.

Sure, you have your moments of weakness - and occasionally act out.

But, all in all, you're karma is good... even with those few dark spots.

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Your Hippie Chick Name Is:

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Starlight

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Your Inner Blood Type is AB!

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Your personality is hard to define - you're very unconventional.

And even if your personality could be defined, it would be completely different next week!

Outgoing and shy, sensitive and thoughtless, you tend to have a very split personality.

This makes you unpredictable. You can be a total angel - and a total devil.

You are most compatible with: everyone!

Famous Type AB's: Jackie Chan and Marilyn Monroe

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You Have Low Self Esteem 80% of the Time

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You tend to blame yourself when things go wrong, regardless of whether it's your fault or not.

You're anxious to please others and rely too much on their opinions. Learn to please yourself first, and your confidence will soar.

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You Are 52% Bipolar

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You're a bit moody, and at times, your moods can be a bit extreme.

It's up to you to decide if you're simply dramatic... or slightly bipolar.

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You Have a Phlegmatic Temperament

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Mild mannered and laid back, you take life at a slow pace.

You are very consistent - both in emotions and actions.

You tend to absorb set backs easily. You are cool and collected.

It is difficult to offend you. You can remain composed and unemotional.

You are a great friend and lover. You don't demand much of others.

While you are quiet, you have a subtle wit that your friends know well.

At your worst, you are lazy and unwilling to work at anything.

You often get stuck in a rut, without aspirations or dreams.

You can get too dependent on others, setting yourself up for abandonment.

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Your EQ is 107

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50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!

51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.

71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.

91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.

111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.

131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.

150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

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Subject	Changes
DateCreated	2/3/2007 11:07:00 PM
PostedDate	2/3/2007 10:52:00 PM
Body	I am no longer the person I once was. I know that now. I can't even begin to describe how much has changed. I was so innocent of everything once, and naive. I knew it and despised myself for it. Now I despise myself for other reasons. I've always felt like a burden and a drain on the human race, but never more so than now. I should be doing something useful and productive, but instead, I'm sitting on my fat ass waiting to die, because the thought of actually living life fills me with an almost paralyzing fear. I have addictions that I didn't have before. That sort of thing changes a person. The feeling of falling down a deep, dark hole comes closest to describing how it feels in my life right now. Safe and comfortable in secluding darkness. I just want to hide from the world and wait for my scars to heal.

Subject	Blah
DateCreated	1/26/2007 7:44:00 PM
PostedDate	1/26/2007 10:41:00 PM
Body	Right now, pretty much the protype for the ultimate in boring.

Subject	The Feeding
DateCreated	1/24/2007 8:56:00 PM
PostedDate	1/24/2007 11:03:00 PM
Body	He came to me in the dark, seeking solace for his hunger. My flesh was pale beneath the moonlight as he bared my neck to his mouth. His lips came nearer, and it was then that I felt the ecstasy of his fangs against my skin. The longing inside me for that sweet pain was intense. My body was trembling in anticipation as I felt the satisying sting of his bite piercing my neck. As he slowly drained my blood, it was then that I knew what peace there was in death.