Crying

[bleedingangel84]

My father starts chemo tomorrow. God, I'm freaking out here, but trying not to show it. I'm really scared for him, and I'm starting to feel trapped here. I really don't want to be here when he comes home, because I really do not want to fall apart. I feel guilty and angry and sad. I wish I had somewhere to go where I felt safe, but there is no place like that. They found two tumors in his lung when they did a CAT scan. I'm praying for him, but that's all I can do right now. I can't handle this.