Today

Apr. 22nd, 2015 11:09 pm
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Today, I wanted to die. Suicide still seems tempting, if I'm completely honest. I'm not looking for attention. I don't mean to worry people. I just want to say one thing: I am more than just my limitations. Sometimes it's really very easy to forget that when my family seems to emphasize them. I know I will feel this way again at some point in the future. I've gone through crying, and I've added pissed as fuck into the mix. As well as feeling guilty for wanting to end things, but it's how I feel. My quality of life is nearly nowhere, and the only thing that makes my existence somewhat tolerable is fandom. That, and my family, are part of what make me stay.And one of the people whom I stay for is also contributing to this issue, so that just makes things worse.I just want to scream. I feel like I look ahead, and all I see is bleak and blank nothing. That said, I'm not giving up. I want to, but I won't.

on 2015-04-23 06:34 am (UTC)
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Posted by [personal profile] my_thestral
And you shouldn't give up, girl. I know life can be pretty frustrating and infuriating sometimes - it was a really fucked up day for me as well yesterday - but you've gotta keep swimming.
Make sure you tick off the little joys in your life every so often (like that concert you went to), but I'm sure there are more than you're aware of. Sometimes people who care about us - and happily make us crazy - form part of the "things worth living for" even though you have to remind yourself every so often, that strangling them is illegal. ;)
Write and read something nice and do something nice for someone else, as well as yourself. Have an ice-cream. Watch some porn (hell, yeah, someone's gotta keep all that statistic up, it's practically your Bible belt duty!;)) - and don't give up just yet. Nicer days will come. Did you apply to the Mental health fest? I have a feeling you'd have a thing or two to write on those topics! I'm doing it, perhaps there's still time for you?
BIg fucking hugs, alright? I've got a tough day in front of me, and I kind of need your prayers, so don't you dare go anywhere! ;)

on 2015-04-25 01:15 am (UTC)
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I'm sorry you had a rough day. Hope are is better now.

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