Well...I don't know

I've been up and down emotionally lately. For once, actally more up than down, which is very strange, indeed. I'm not even sure what I'm feeling, but I AM feeling, Wow, oh boy, am I, and part of me wishes this would stop, because the main emotion I'm feeling is guilt, at least for the moment. One of my best friends in the world is having a hard time, and I feel like I fail at being a good friend to her. It sucks. I want to be there for her, but it's hard not to get caught up in my own life sometimes.  I absolutely hate myself for that. EEK. I'm rambling, so I'll sign off.