Epically bad word vomit in half-poetic form....

*deep breath*

Can't find the words in prose,
so I'll speak in poem

I am
Questioning
many things.

What is good?
What is evil?
Where do I fit?

Am I a great big cosmic shit?
An evil stain, to be condemned?

Goddess, carry me away
from the pain and voices of my past.

Every breath I breathed then
was hell inside a storm.

Every action
was a bleeding wound
forcing me to hurt.

Even breathing
felt like sin.

What comes
naturally to me-
they'd call it perverse.

I am different,
but not wrong.

I see beyond
what they look at
with judgment
in their eyes.

I take joy
in what they
despise.

Love is love,
no matter the form.

Fiction can be enough
to save a life.

It's an escape.

Even if things
don't always turn
out right,
at least
the chapter ends.

Another story
can begin.

And so the characters
are forever.

A list of randomness....

1. My favorite colors are black and purple.
2. My favorite foods in the world are spinach and mushrooms
3. I would die or kill for my nephews.
4. I like Marilyn Manson as well as some Christian Music
5. Organized religion has been known to give me panic attacks
6. My favorite  reading material is often erotica with gay and lesbian themes, as well as non-erotic material of the same nature.
7. I like to read YA books and Dr. Seuss
8. I am fascinated with food, cooking and herbs, but rarely allowed in the kitchen.
9. Three famous people I would like to meet are: Johnny Depp, Marilyn Manson and Betty White.
10. I want to write a novel with a polyamorous characters, set in the South.
11. Sometimes it seems like Southerners use God as weapon: Believe or Burn. It irks the fuck out of me.
12. I work very hard at times to not turn out like some of the people that influence me.
13. My biggest fear is turning into someone that I can't tolerate being.
14. My beliefs and knowledge are nearly always in a state of flux. I don't think the Creator I believe in would mind that I question, but I sometimes worry that He/ She/ It/They hate me, and the religious people I know are right after all.
15. I need to feel safe in order to have an actual relationship with someone.