I Feel Okay Today

I've been having a pretty good day today. I've done some yoga, listened to some good music, walked a bit and slept a bit. I've been making it a point the last few days to try and keep music playing constantly, and it seems to be helping me feel much less stressed and irritated.  I'm really pleased about that, because it felt for a while there like I was on the urge of blowing up at every little thing. i hope it continues like this. It's so nice to feel peaceful for once. I haven't been as worried about being evil, which is a huge relief. I haven't been thinking about my family's attitudes, which I think is the main reason I feel better. I'm just sorry I let them get to me as much as they do. I know that what they think is wrong, but somehow it still wormed its way into my thoughts and stuck there like a burr. 

I'm not a bad person. I never was, and I never want to be. I've never wanted to hurt people. Hurting others has much too much negative effect on people. I want to make a positive contribution to the world, even if it's only in small ways.  Or if I can't be positive, I at least hope to be neutral. I don't think I could intentional hurt anyone. The guilt when i do it accidentally is bad enough. Even thinking about hurting others makes me feel bad, so I don't think I need to worry about being bad or evil, regardless of what I like.

For today, I feel better. I feel like I vent an awful lot of negative things on this journal sometimes, and I just wanted to share something nice for a change. Thank you all for reading. I hope you all are having a good day or night, wherever you are,