Farewell to an Ordinary Girl

A sudden fall of tears-
Eyes are things dead,
Forgotten among the
debris of a life
half-lived.

Wretched waste.
fearful burden
Sounded the echoes
throughout her soul,
tearing her apart.

Dreams unspoken
left to ferment and rot-
Death was the sweetest oblivion.
The surest escape.

Weep not at her demise,
for now she soars free
among moon-shot clouds.
harboring points
of starlight luminous .

Thankfulness

I should be happy. Mostly I feel like pooh and just wish I had a someone to cuddle up with. I have the best, most lovingest friends in the world. I'm grateful beyond words for ever single one of my friends, because most of the time, that's where I get my support from. They know me better than my family ever will and still love me. I feel incredibly lucky to be able to say that. It means the world to me that there are people in the world who love me enough to do more than tolerate me or "handle" me. I'm also privileged enough to have a few precious people in the family that is mine, that I can call friends as well. That is a precious gift in and of itself.

I only hope that one day, I can teach myself to feel worth of the gifts and blessings I have. I'd never want to take them for granted.I'm so thankful for my friends and the family of my heart who hold me up when I can't see where I'm heading. Thank you all for being there and supporting me. I have no words for what that means to me. Sometimes it's everything. Even when I want to give up, they never let me, and they always seem to know what I need the most. Bless you all. I hope everyone has a fine day. As for me, I will end this musing and sleep. I need it. I just wanted to say thank you to those who are my family, whether through blood or pure spiritual connection. I love you all and you deserve the best.