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I need to vent...
May. 29th, 2013 06:14 pmThings have felt so awkward lately. I'm isolating myself more than I should be in the interest of self-preservation. I don't even talk as much as I used to.
My grandmother has stayed with me since my father died. She all but lives with me, and she is here a lot.
That being said, I am going CRAZY.
I feel like I have no privacy or freedom to breathe.
My grandmother is protective to the point of being irritating.
I have discussed this with my family and with her, but nothing ever seems to change.
One of my friends is coming to stay with me, and I can tell my grandmother hates that idea. But, this friend is more my sister than anything else, and I do not care what my grandmother thinks.
However, this whole situation has driven home the point that my life is not my own. Nor has it been since my father has passed.
More often than not, I feel like I'm just existing, not living.
And I hate it.
My grandmother has stayed with me since my father died. She all but lives with me, and she is here a lot.
That being said, I am going CRAZY.
I feel like I have no privacy or freedom to breathe.
My grandmother is protective to the point of being irritating.
I have discussed this with my family and with her, but nothing ever seems to change.
One of my friends is coming to stay with me, and I can tell my grandmother hates that idea. But, this friend is more my sister than anything else, and I do not care what my grandmother thinks.
However, this whole situation has driven home the point that my life is not my own. Nor has it been since my father has passed.
More often than not, I feel like I'm just existing, not living.
And I hate it.
