My Life is Officially 'Meh'

I can barely recall when I actually talked face to face with a person my own age. I spend most of my days with a 9-year-old, and my 75-year-old paternal grandmother stays overnight in my house with me because she doesn't want me to be alone.

I get excited over going grocery shopping once every two months because I so rarely get out of my house.

I feel like I'm mediocre at everything I attempt to do.

I'm not good or bad, but somewhere in between.

I've always done my best to be a good person, do what's expected of me and not cause trouble.

I feel like I'm a boring person most of the time.

It's just sad.

I'm going stir crazy and I need to get out.