Updates and stuff

My grandmother is awake now. She's still dealing with a lot of pain. They wanted to try to get her up and walking on her feet today, but she was hurting really badly. The physical therapist, from what I was told, was aggravated at her not being able to walk. I can understand being frustrated with a situation, but for fuck's sake, do not take it out on your patient. Her hip has been broken for three damn weeks because the doctor was unthinking enough not to order an x-ray. This situation is not her fault, and is certainly nothing she wanted to have happpen.

They got her out of bed and into a chair next to her bed for an hour this morning, which I think is a good thing. Maybe that's naive, but I'm holding on to the positive in this as hard as I can. I don't care if it makes me seem stupid or in denial, or whatever else they might think. Anyway, that's all the news I have.

As for me, I feel sort of emotionally wiped out. I wish I could flip a switch and make her walk without pain. I wish I could flip a switch and make her well again, period. I know these things take time, and I'm not giving up on hoping for a full and complete return to health. I want her back home safe and well so much.

Life is upside down right now, and all I can do is pray that it rights itself soon.

All of this makes me think of my daddy. I really miss him right now, and I wish he were here.