Falling apart and coming together

[bleedingangel84]

So...my life has lately been and odd series of highs and lows. I can't really in all honesty say that I've been unhappy, but, at the same time, I don't know that I'm really happy, either. Mainly, I suppose I feel puzzled.  Some of my old non-healthy coping mechanisms have re-asserted themselves again, and I don't really know what triggering this.

There are lots of good things happening in my life, I have support, my attitude has in general been much more positive, so why is this happening? Why am I letting this happen? I wish I knew. It's the first time this has really happened when I haven't been aware of what's causing it.