Bah Humbug!

[bleedingangel84]

I got a cold for Christmas. Really. True evidence of Murphy's Law at play. Oh, well. Good news is that I'm getting better really quickly. (Insert profuse thanks for a superlative immune system here). In other news, my father is still sick. I'm hoping that he will keep his word and go to the hospital today. I'm so frustrated with him at this point that I'd really like to hurt something, and I'm generally not a violent person. At all. 

Christmas this year felt like...not. It could've been any other day. The best part of it was getting to see my nephews. I love those two little boys with everything in me.They are my heart. If not for them, I could very easily give up on everything. I've felt that way so much recently.  It would probably scare me if I wasn't feeling numb, but I'm trying to keep positive in all this. I'm thankful for my family, even though certain attitudes of theirs make me beyond angry.They love me in their own way, and I do appreciate that. Even when I feel like an alien in the company of my relatives. I swear, sometimes I wonder if we even speak the same language.

In any case, that's enough ranting. I hope everyone had a good holiday.

Comments

[veritas03.livejournal.com]

If not for them, I could very easily give up on everything. I've felt that way so much recently. It would probably scare me if I wasn't feeling numb, but I'm trying to keep positive in all this.
This worries me. Sounds like what my son has been dealing with. Please take care of you. Please.

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much for your concern. That really means a lot to me. I'm doing my best to take care of me. My father did go to the hospital, so that's something good, and he's already feeling some better since they have him on oxygen. I'm not feeling quite so hopeless now, but things are still hard. I'm doing my best to hold myself together. I'm sorry for worrying you. *hug*

[veritas03.livejournal.com]

I'm glad that your father did go to the hospital. Please do not apologize fot worrying me. Just take care. *hugs back*

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

I will. I'm trying to find my next goal. For some reason, holidays seem like the worst times for me. I'm trying to make my resolutions for New Years soon, so I'm attempting to push aside negatives right now. My friends tell me I have a bad habit of apologizing for everything. lol. I wish the best for your son. This is a rough place to be, and he deserves better than this. Thank you for the hugs and well wishes. It really does help.

[veritas03.livejournal.com]

omg - my friends and family tell me that I have a bad habit of apologizing for everything too. I think I've gotten better about it though. Oh well, it's not the worst thing, right? Thanks for the mention of my son. You deserve better too. *hugs*

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

No, it's not the worst thing. I really hope that your son continues to improve. Depression is an awful thing to experience, especially long-term. Thank you for telling me I deserve better. *hug*