Forgive me for babbling on and on, but...

[bleedingangel84]

Life is kinda kicking my ass at the moment. I have family members and others I care for that are sick and/or otherwise dealing with health-related situations that are not good. I am trying to stay positive. I am, I promise. I'm struggling today. I've been on the verge of frustrated stress tears all day. I'm trying to keep it together, but all I really want to do is fall apart. I honestly love my family, I do. I appreciate everything they have done and are doing for me. That being said, sometimes I can't help feeling...small. Having to depend on them makes me realize just how truely not comfortable I feel around them sometimes. I don't even know why. They aren't mean about helping me. Actually, they've been really nice and kind and good to me. I just wish it wasn't necessary. I wish there was some way to press pause on my life for a short while and just...stop everything.

Comments

[my_thestral]

Meh, poor you! :( I imagine it must be god-awful feeling dependent and coming into situations when you realize that you are. :P I guess if you had a good cry, some of the worst tension is already gone and perhaps you're feeling a tiny bit better already? I certainly hope so.
We all have bad days and then there are really miserable days (as you well know from my last week's comments!) and then the swing goes upwards again and we're able to see the skies. :)
Once you're down, there's no other way but up, hon... :)
Super squeezy hugs and a butterbeer for your sorrow! :)

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

I do feel a little better today, thank goodness. These things run in cycles, apparently. I cried, and then it was like my brain said I was allowed to feel better. Thank you so much for the hugs and support. I really appreciate it. <3 *hugs*