Sister fail...

[bleedingangel84]

Ugh...I was supposed to help my sister proofread something. She emailed it to me, and I didn't get it until just now. I feel so guilty. :'(

I hate myself right now.

I suppose it's more email fail than sister-fail, but still...

I really wish I could hurt myself.

I feel like I deserve it for letting my sister down.

*headdesking of major proportions*

Comments

[idikehaine.livejournal.com]

Nononononono, stop the headdesking.
You say yourself, it's email fail, you couldn't have made the email sending faster. You have nothing to feel guilty about. Can you still help your sister? Is SHE giving you the fault?
*hugs*
<3

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

It was something for a class. She was able to proof and submit it, but I still feel guilty. She's not making me a big deal over it, but I just feel so bad over it. <3 *hugs*

[my_thestral]

Water under the bridge now, honey, there's nothing to do, but if it was urgent, your sister should have called you - she can't expect you to be behind the e-mail 24/7. I do the same for my sister, proof-reading, that is, but she has to call me she wants it done. This really couldn't possibly have been your fault whichever way you turn it. It's not like your refused, is it? You can't take the weight of the whole world on your shoulders, and you need to accept that these things happen and that it's probably not the last time either. But if you hurt yourself, that didn't just happen, you made a bad thing happen on purpose and you'd cause yourself and others lots of grief. I know you won't hurt yourself, I know it, because you're smarter and more in control than that, but I understand that you get an urge like this every once in a while - you just need to control it, OK? :) *hugs* Sometimes the Universe just works against you and there's nothing you can do. You didn't do anything wrong deliberately and it's time to accept that you just weren't meant to beta that particular text. There will be other opportunities to make it up to your sister and no one would benefit from you hurting yourself. Two bads don't make a good, yeah? :) Big fat hugs and do something positive instead! :)

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

You make good points, as always. Truthfully, I was more upset over it than my sister was. I actually get the urge to self-harm more often these days than I have in years. It used to be one of my go-to coping methods, so when I get stressed, the thought is in my head. That said, I haven't actually self-harmed since January of 2013. I know that having a thought doesn't necessarily have to equate to action unless I choose to manifest it in my behaviors, but I find that if I actually talk out or write about my thoughts, it makes them easier to handle. I actually stayed up last night reading fic instead of focusing on what was in my head. I figure that since I didn't cut, that could only be a good thing, right? Thank you so much for the hugs and support. *hugs* Both mean more to me than i can say.

[enchanted-jae.livejournal.com]

Is your sister as upset as you are? If not, quit beating yourself up about it.

If she did need it back by a certain time, she could have called you to be sure you received it.

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

No, she wasn't upset with me at all, but I still feel a little guilty over it.