Hopeless

[bleedingangel84]

I find myself
with the craving
to bleed, and
it's as if I were
twenty again,
holding rusted
scissors to my leg,
just to stop
the chaos in my swirling,
screaming brain.

God, why I am I here
again? Thirty-one
is supposed to be past this
fucking shit already.
They always talked about it like
it was a phase.

They don't know shit.
Stress is stress,
no matter the age, and
we all need to be heard.

I will sit here,
and I will write about my
sick head and tired body.
Maybe one day, you
will look past my facade
to hear the words I never say.

Comments

[my_thestral]

Oh, hon, this is so sad and beautiful! Are you sure you're OK? If you want to chat outside the fandom, you know where to find me. I just want you to be save and hopefully, happy, because no one deserves it more than you. Hugs? Hugs! Triple ones! Until you're better! :)

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! The past few days have been more stressing than usual, so the urges Are rearing their ugly little heads again. *hugs* I really do appreciate the support. It means a lot to me.

[idikehaine.livejournal.com]

This is so wonderful and yet so terrible, because you feel all this.
Sending a thousand, a milion hugs. If need someone to talk to, I'm here for you <3

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thank you so much. I really appreciate the offer to talk. It means a lot to me. <3

[idikehaine.livejournal.com]

The offer stands. Anytime you want. I'll be there.ä
*hugs*

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

Thank you <3 *hugs*