*Pokes her head out of her shell*

So, I've kind of been taking an unintended break from people. Mostly because I've been sleeping. I've been feeling drained lately. Not physically drained, but, emotionally...yeah.

My birthday is looming next month, which I am sooo not looking forward to at all. I haven't been happy about birthdays since I turned 18, but this year is even worse. I can't help thinking how my dad won't be here. It's hard to realize that almost a year has passed since we lost him. Sometimes it feels like it just happened, and other times, it feels like that was a part of someone else's life.

In some ways, I feel like a completely different person than I was last year. I'm met new people, and in many ways, I'm thinking differently than I was. Some of that's good, and some of it's not as good. I've taken a lot more chances, which makes me feel more empowered in some ways, and more vulnerable in others. To which I say: Yikes!

Vulnerable is very scary for me.  Even when you're beyond ready for change, it still sucks ass, but not in the fun way. lol