waaaaahhhh!!!

Excuse my bawling like a baby, but I had a bad-good day today. Good because I was with my nephew most of the day, but bad because I feel like I let my sister down. I was helping my nephew with home school, and I felt like a complete flake. we didn't get as much done as I was hoping we would've, and I feel really awful about it. Like, on-the-verge-of-tears awful.

I feel like I suck as a person right now, and it feels insanely bad.

I'm kind of in meltdown-y mode.

I feel like I failed at this. It was only my first day helping him, but I feel like I let myself down and let him down, too, and I just want to cry until I don't have tears left inside me.

I don't know why I felt like I was capable of doing this.

I never feel like I can handle anything usually, but this, I thought I just might be able to, and it completely blows that I conked on it.