waaaaahhhh!!!

[bleedingangel84]

Excuse my bawling like a baby, but I had a bad-good day today. Good because I was with my nephew most of the day, but bad because I feel like I let my sister down. I was helping my nephew with home school, and I felt like a complete flake. we didn't get as much done as I was hoping we would've, and I feel really awful about it. Like, on-the-verge-of-tears awful.

I feel like I suck as a person right now, and it feels insanely bad.

I'm kind of in meltdown-y mode.

I feel like I failed at this. It was only my first day helping him, but I feel like I let myself down and let him down, too, and I just want to cry until I don't have tears left inside me.

I don't know why I felt like I was capable of doing this.

I never feel like I can handle anything usually, but this, I thought I just might be able to, and it completely blows that I conked on it.

Comments

[enchanted-jae.livejournal.com]

You're naturally going to be your own worst critic. I'm sure things didn't go as badly as you seem to think they did. If anything, let it be incentive for you to try harder the next time. You can do it!

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much! My sister says anything I get done with him is a help to her, so I'm taking her at her word on that.

[nenne.livejournal.com]

You'll get the hang of it, I'm sure! *haz faith*

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

I sure do hope so. I'd hate to be the one responsible for my nephew failing fourth grade.