Non-progress reportage

[bleedingangel84]

Some days, life really seems to suck. I've been struggling with myself a lot lately with self-destructive urges. I feel tired, drained, irritated and ready to scream. I'm trying as hard as I can to be positive, but it seems like there is so much negativity around me right now, and I can't stand it. I've come really close to hurting myself, but I've managed to avoid that. The thought seems constant, though. I wish I could shrink myself down to fit inside a thimble and hide from the rest of the world.

I'm sorry to be such a downer today.

I'm still trying to work on the resolutions I made back in January. Some of them are actually going fairly well. I've spent a few days with my sister, I try to laugh at least once in a day, even if the day isn't going well, I've been writing a few little things, and I just got the boxed set of "I Love Lucy" for myself, though I've felt slightly guilty for the purchase ever since. What can I say? Rome definitely wasn't built in a day, and I'm trying.

Yes, I can hear Yoda in my head saying that there is no try, only do, but I never claimed to be a Jedi anyway. Gods, I am such a dork. lol

Anyway, that's my update today.

Peace be to all of Live Journal

Comments

[veritas03.livejournal.com]

*hugs you* Sorry I can't do more. I am sending positive thoughts your way.

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

*hugs back* Thank you so much.That helps a lot. <3