Daddy

[bleedingangel84]

I'm thinking about my father right now. I miss him very much, Call me crazy, but I still feel him around me so much of the time. He's always in my thoughts and in my heart Everything and anything can remind me of him, and does. I'm learning to live with this great big hole inside. It's been over a year since his passing, but it feels like part of me will never stop grieving for him.

I'm being healthy about it, though, and letting myself cry as I write this, rather than giving in to some of my painful urges. I like to consider that some form of progress. Heaven knows I need to feel like I'm accomplishing something here, even if it's nothing more than basic survival. 

It's a start, right?

Comments

[enchanted-jae.livejournal.com]

*hugs* You'll always miss your dad, but I do believe that he is near you. Grieving is not a finite process, so give yourself permission to cry any time you want to or need to.

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Thank you for the support. the grief seems to come whether I want it or not. All I can do is let it out. I'm trying not to bottle it up.

[nenne.livejournal.com]

I don't think it's crazy that you feel him around you. I feel that way with my grandfather.

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I'm glad I'm not the only one who has experienced that. :) I'm sorry it took me a few days to comment back, but life got a bit busy.