I realized that I'm happy

[bleedingangel84]

I have been doing a lot of thinking about my life over the past few days.  I've been making plans again, and dreaming things up, and it feels very good to let that part of myself loose for awhile. I was letting the negativity affect me too much, but now I'm starting to feel like I have a little hope again. I'm not sure exactly where this is coming from, but I am beyond grateful for it. My head isn't such a bad place when I have good thoughts in there.  I have this image of my mind as a garden, and all the negative thoughts are weeds. I find that the visual makes the negative easier to handle. It might seem silly, but if it helps, I don't see any harm in keeping it up. I know there will times when I have bad days, but I want to do my best to minimize those. I want to stay positive. It just plain old feels better.

On a somewhat related tangent, I think my grandmother watches too much evening news. which would be fine if she didn't seem determined to hash over all the evils in the world with me. I tell her that she watches too much, but she seems to revel in it, in a way. It's sort of hard to explain. She's not evil or anything, she just finds it easier to focus on negatives.

Well, I'd rather not do that, so here are some inspiring things that made me feel good today:

• Texting with a friend
• Reading and re-reading supportive comments on LJ
• Reading a fluffy H/D oneshot
• Eating some nice cereal with my evening meal. (I like the thought that I'm taking care of my body when I eat).
• Watching videos that made me laugh on YouTube
• Watching the teens competition episode of Chopped on Foodnetwork

Comments

[veritas03.livejournal.com]

:D

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

<3

[enchanted-jae.livejournal.com]

Making plans and looking forward to things is always a mood booster.

[bleedingangel84.livejournal.com]

Definitely! It amazes me how much better I feel.